Its official I have sickness I feel so tired, I guess I should go to bed but laying down makes me feel worse.
Nothings worse than being sick at the moment, I hope I get better bye tommorow sinse I have an exam.
Anyone heard than new song by the Hoosiers - cops and robbers. I love that XD Listeing to that has cheered me up some. Been listening to a bit of trance lately and I don't normally, something must be going on with me lol.

I also had bad back injury the other week so now I have a bit of discomfort with my back - I fell off a buzzer/cable swing.
As for the update on Santuary its coming soon, but now I need some rest.

byes

xxx

                         

This is going to be a rather sentimental post I'm afraid but it needs to be said.
I am an aquarian so its only natural I seem cold because yes I do bottle things in, this is only because I feel there's no need to hurt or bother anyone with my opinions/problems. Yes I do get confused with emotions because I sometimes have no clue how to express myself in the right way vocally - so rather than take that challenge I let things pass. Let people get away with things that they do to me and others because of my weakness.

It frustrates me to no end. I feel I sometimes leave lose ends when I talk to people because of my internal struggle. I am truelly sorry if I do. This is a letter if you will to those who are around and might feel intimidated maybe because of apparent coldness. This is a chance to explain myself so you can understand. You may think I have a stick up my ass at times but truelly it isn't that it is because I find it very hard to trust people with the 'real' me. It's easier to play safe than get hurt deeply.

Yes I have been through a traumatic exsperiance when I was young, it effects every child that has to go through it. The event of your parents breaking up. I fooled myself thinking it hasn't affected me but really I see now it has and it's been hard going back and seeing the damage it caused. Nothing annoy's me more when people think I don't know no pain, like I haven't gone through a lot of shit - because I can't possibly be so calm, forgiving etc. if I had. Well guess what I have, I don't need no sympathy for that. It just touches a nerve when people assume things like that.

Thats all I wish to say for now. maybe in the future I'll be able to come out a bit more but at preasent I am not ready yet.